Today was definitely a bittersweet day for me. Dropping my baby off for her first day of the 1st grade was emotional for me in many ways. 1) I can't believe how fast she is growing up and how fast the last 6 years have gone by. 2) this could very well be the only time that I get to take anyone to their first day of the 1st grade. Not knowing if Anthony and I will ever have a child together. 3) I really wish I could turn back the hands of time and have more time with Makenzie when she was little. I wish I could have been a SAHM and enjoyed all of the little moments with her that I know missed while I was at work and she was in daycare. I hate that I am just now getting my business to where it is consistently growing and bring in more money every month, making it to where soon I will be able to stay at home, but what for now as my child is in school all day and won't need me to pick her up at 11:30 or won't need me to just be there with her all day playing and laughing and having a good time together.
I cherish every moment we have together, the good and the bad, knowing that she won't be this little and innocent forever. Someday sitting on the couch watching a movie or dancing around the living room to music videos on CMT won't be fun or "cool" to her and I will be the person that she probably hates the most because I won't want to let her do things I know she shouldn't be doing or that isn't good for her.
To all of you SAHM's out there cherish that time you get with your children even if they drive you crazy!! Because for each one of you there is one or more working mother's wishing they could be doing the same thing as you everyday and regretting the fact that they have to work and practically let someone else raise their child!
That is my rant for the day!